Yeah yeah yeah...don't say anything. I know the last couple times I wrote, I promised to start writing more consistently (yeah shut up) but I'm serious now! Lol
So...I think with the help of someone very special...I'm finally finding out who I am...what kind of man I want to be...and finding out what it is I want.
I want to be my own boss...I want 3 kids...I want to be financially comfortable...I want my family to be proud to call me the head of household...I want to get my finances together...and I want to serve God in the process. I can't even begin to explain how excited I am about what the future holds for me...us....
So I've known this certain young lady since 2005...and it has certainly been a rollercoaster ride. I think we both have grown so much...and thusly have become better for each other. After my last couple of situations, I think I stopped believing in love...stopped believing that I deserved to be happy with someone...stopped believing that I could be happy. She has renewed in me not only a fire to be a better man...but a fire to lead my life right...to please God. She makes me feel so good about just being me...and I feel like I'm enough for once. For the first time I feel truly and without a doubt like a man. For the first time in my life...I think I'm trying to live for the future and not just for the now. Jeri Kelli Austin...thank you. Baby...I love you.
Hopefully after this semester...only one year left...then on to "our" future...and on to the man I am to become.
I guess you could say that for the first time in such a very long time...I'm happy. :o)